slide in and down, just there

if i say "slide in and down just there" one more time im going to have to take some sort of drastic measures against myself. like i have to say the "slide in and down" part so people know how to do the debit but why did i add the "just there" and why cant i stop?

bah anyway, wanna know how much i love costco? well i dont at all. why? because my hours have been cut to 25 a week till march apparently.
wow... im not stressing but i feel super used like "Lacey we needed you to help us get through the holidays but now that that over were just going screw you right over"
lovely.
so im looking for a nother part time job or a full time job that can guarentee me 40 hours a week.

also i would like to complain about that fact that you guys dont update your blogs anymore
that is very....unacceptable

world apart

so today has been alot of thinking, i spent most of the day in my pjs watching full house season 8 or reading one of my new books, but the wheels of my mind where a turn the whole time.

Im at this weird place where all i want to do is get out of here, i want to go to africa, I want to live my faith, I want to meet new people and part of me feels like Im going to find Jesus over there.
But the other part of me is absolutly terrified and doesnt want to leave my family.

The other day when My mom was driving me to work she told me that she was prepairing for me not to come home.

that was pretty much one of the scariest moments of my entire life.

Clear the area

Brianne and I got our tattoo's today!
(Brianne if you read my blog please wait to read this entry i want to write some stuff about the meaning of our tattoo but i want the first time you read that to be in your christmas card okay?????)


So Brianne and I got out tattoo's done but a very pleasant Chrys Goldberg, at first i was kinda disapointed because we had to wait an hour for him to finish someone elses tattoo but now then i think about it that really wasnt a big deal,
anyway we "rock paper scissord" for who would get to go first and Brianne won, so it was pretty fun watching her.
Then it was my turn and we had to reajust the placement a few times before it was just where i liked it (i was being picky)
then we started and it wasnt bad, defiantly something i could handly, there where certain places like when the needle went over that i was like "ow ow ow please stop doing that" but nothing to bad.

anyway so Briannd and I got matching skeleton keys, hers is on her left wrist, mine is on my right and they are facing the opposite ways but they are the same design.

So here are some of my symbolisms for the key design, A key can represent security, if you have a key you know you have some where you can go to, i can represent safty for pretty much the same reason, I can also represent acceptance because you dont give just anyone a key.
These are all things i have in my friendship with Brianne. She is also a key part of the person that i am.
I love her very much and am so grateful that she is my friend.

Brianne was saying the symbolism she attaches with it, is that everyone is looking for the key to success like the key to a perfect marragie, career extra and she likes the idea of a key tattoo to say that she still hasnt found it.

thats all folks

but if you give me one more chance

I had coffee with Laura Pope today!
and I am so excited for africa(64 days!)
and she gave me a movie of some of her students, and she just asks them questions and stuff and she askes the two guys "what give you hope for the future?"
and they both in different words said "my friends and the people who work with me"
themba said "the fact that people care about me...."
and wow
i am so excited, I want people to know I care about them

this is how i say

Plane ticket booked!
on feb 22nd I leave from calgary at 5:55pm fly to londan arrive there at 9:00 am, leave from londan at 5:55 pm (weird that both flights leave at the same time) and arrive in jo'burg at 7 am feb 24th, sweeeet. Party at the airport anyone?

Im am so terrified
but SOOO excited at the same time
and im not doing so good finically hahaha but it will all come together hopefully.
I wrote one support letter, to the church, and felt really lame about it but im really gonna need the donations soooo i guess i gotta go what i gotta do.

Love Affair

I really like who I am.
I hope that doesnt sound concieded but for the most part I really like who I am.

I was reading my journal the other day, then i was reading my old blog and THEN i was tlaking to a new friend and all three times i was kinda struck but how i sound kind of inteligent (i know i cant freaking spell) and thats kinda cool.

yesturday for like 5 minutes i let myself believe that who i am is good enough and is someone who has something to offer to the people i am going to be with in africa, it was a pretty fricken cool feeling, but that feeling comes and goes, worry takes over and im like "shoot i really need to work on bettering myself" so yeah i dont know.

hey children whats that sound?

Carly: So Lacey any questions?
Lacey: um yeah am i like in now? like accepted for sure?
Carly:*laughs* well i was going to wait till the end of the interview to tell you but yes you are accepted we have been praying for you and we are so excited to have you.

shit dudes, feburary 23

somethings missing

I think probably one of the greatest things I was shown in vancouver and one of the greatest lessons i am still in the process of learning, its love for community, i love people, i truely do love the people im friends with and stuff, but the YWAM staff has this love for there whole city and specifically the community of commercial drive.
But see i cant just take what they do and say "i love my community to, so i'll do they stuff they do here" because i really want to KNOW my community before i start doing the stuff they do, Free hugs did give me a hand in starting to know some people in kennsington, whenever im down there i talk to mike and his group of punk friends, i almost got up my nerve to talk to the hot guy i met down there but instead i just sat and looked at him because i was to scared to talk.

so heres my deal i love what kennsington is, i love the feel of community there, but now the question is whats the next step? how do i get to know more people down there and how do i love kennsington as a whole? and is this to big a undertaking to do before feburary and is it kinda lame to try and learn and love a community and then peace out for a year?

much thought much thought.
(ps happy Birthday yesturday Ted)