Oranges!

so I have this policy you see, this policy about not really sharing many pictures just because i would perfer to come home and be able to share the stories with the pictures as well buuuuut i decieded to upload this pictures from a recent de-wormig adventure,We were in a community other then masoyi and it was some where outside of nelspruti maybe 30-45 minutes away from where i stay. So many children and so many oranges! and it was up to me to peel them...well not all of them but many.

standing face to face

so the other day we where watching this video and in this video there was a Shepard and a guy who was tagging alone to see what it is like to be a Shepard, apparently in the hot season sheep get something called "summer fever" and they get headaches (how they know this i don't really know)
so the Shepard takes oil and massages all the sheep's heads, the observes asks "so do they all feel better now?"
the Shepard says "well i don't think so, but i don't think they want me to take their pain away i think they just want to know i am there and that i care"

since then I've been thinking a lot about if we as people would rather God just not let us feel pain or let us feel pain but through that let us know that he is with us in our pain.
I love the sound of the second part.

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I will blog more of whats been going on lately at a later time

Brian wilson

during our footprints training one of our assignements was to write a "10 commandments" for our life (and okay a little backround info, this past week i have felt aweful, like i wasnt understanding why i am here and all this stuff and it just sucked,) so i was laying in my bed kinda pouting, kinda ranting inside my brain andim looking at all the stuff posted on my wall and one of the things is my commandments

1) Be a lover
> love God, love people
(this is number one and most important, its something i need to remember when i get frustrated with the people i live and work with, i need to remember to love people and God most importantly)
2)Don't Fear
>let Go
(it could be the fear i get at night when i think people are trying to break in or the fear that i am not meant to be here)
3)Trust
>Know there is a plan
(this one i've been so bad at! there is a plan for me, for africa for everything!)
4)Be Real
> be the created not the creator
(i created a expectation of what i wanted to experiance to be, i need to let that go and just go with what God has created)
5)Be Open
>to Experiances, to God, to people
(i've not been letting God lead me to to experiances i should be open to)
6) Reflect what you believe

after reading through all that i felt way relieved
it was pretty cool