14 past my window

Hello Children

wow my first post from Africa, i cant believe I'm here.
The flights went well, nothing bad went down at all, my 7 hour lay over in London was brutal! but not as brutal as the 9 hour wait for my bus in Johannesburg.

I haven really had a chance to journal yet and that mixed with my jet lag is making this post a little hard to write.

the campus where i am staying at is really beautiful, there are like flowers and trees and stuff, I live in a place called "west mount cottage" with four other people, there is Laura and Dustin from Canada, Dara from the states and callan from south Africa.
Honestly I'm feeling very "odd man out" because the other two girls know each other and share a room and the guys are...guys? and are hanging out and getting to know each other and then there is me, BUT it will get better, i am still in my little "to shy to quite" stage so I'm sure once i start talking it will get better.

weird thing happened today...we went into town to buy groceries and....that was my first time shopping for myself....my first(stressful!) time grocery shopping was in Africa....weird! so i kept the receipt to like scrap book or something, i only bought enough for the next two days because on Thursday!!!! we are going to live in the community with a orphange headed household (which means a house run by someone who doesnt have parent and are taking care of there siblings....intense) so I'm pretty dang excited for that. i will be there till Tuesday and yeah its going to be awesome (please note people who are expecting calls from me you will have to wait till after that)

so i guess there isn't a lot to write about seeing as today is only technically my first day....
tonight we have been invited up to the farm for dinner and a movie so that will be cool, tomorrow is a HIV training day, wesnday there is small group in the morning and then community prep in the afternoon and then on Thursday we are off to the community.

oh i have a sweet story! so I'm talking to my roommates "oh do we want music" and we like rig up my thing and plug it in and start listening to music and then we hear a loud pop....so I'm pretty sure my ipod dock is broken :( but yeah not sure.

so thats all...

here's to the night

tonight was epic, i had such a good time.

i've said goodbye to most of my favorite people and its weird cause i kinda dont feel anything...like i said "talk to you later" to each one of them and i guess it hasnt sunk in yet that im not going to see this people for a little while.
it weird the whole trip doesnt even seem real at all yet....

ps i was meant to be a rockstar

tell me baby

so i've been re-reading anthoney kedis's book and its really makes me wish the i could have been apart of the punk revalotion in the 80's in LA
i also wish i was a part of the hippie movement of the 1960's and ...pretty much all those revalotions.
and brianne and i where talking about how we wished we could be apart of one of those things now, but i dont think thats possiable.
but as i was talking about it with someone at work today my thought was maybe i can be apart of a revolution in africa, maybe my generation isnt going to come up with some sort of genuis music movement but maybe we'll learn what love really is, maybe we can feed the hungry and cloth and home our street brothers like Jesus really wanted...
who knows

skittles

ahhhh
we are now offically at 9
9 is less then 10
9 is a single digit number
oh my gosh

so today i recieved a email from carly stewart called "introducing the feburary volunteers"
and there was the picture and little write up on the four people who are doing footprints.
there was myself and a lady named laura who is 25 and a nurse from sask.
there was a lady named dara who is 27 and also a nurse. Dara and Laura both volunteered for a thing called mercy ship, which is kinda of a floating clinic that goes along the coast of africa, neither of them knew that the other had applied for footprints, so thats kinda cool taht they are going to reconnect, and when i met laura she told me that herself and dara where probably going to do home base care in mozabique for there outreach, which i think is kinda cool.
the last one is Callan he is from south africa and the same age as me, carly didnt mention what kind of outreach he does but she did mention that he's very involved in youth ministy so maybe he wants to do a youth outreach, which is also what i would like to do, so maybe him and I will get sent out together which would be cool, i would be down with that seeing as he is from there and would be comfortable with the culture and money and traveling africa cause he does after all live there.
but that also makes me wonder about the difference in culture for the blacks and the white...
so yeah.

it was weird looking through that thing and knowing that in like 10 days these people are going to be my imediate group of friends,i wonder how they will affect my life.
im scared of how im going to go through this whole thing without having the support system im use to right there beside me.
its gonna be intense.

great divide

I gave my notice at costco yesturday and i dont know why but i was sooo nervous, but my manager was actually kinda nice about it she was like well thats a good reason im sad your going lalala.
so yeah my last day with be this sunday. 4 more shifts im really stoaked cause i really dislike my job.

I can not believe this is happeneing like....we are at 10 days nows.
like i have slowly drifted from feeling indifferent to getting this great waves of fear.
Like i know this is going to be like the most awesome experiance of my life, but because i cant see past the stuff i need to do, saying goodbye to my family and being anxious about the plan ride i cant picture the good stuff.
and these waves of fear keep hitting me.

I feel like im kinda leaving at a weird time, i feel like there is so much i need to fix before i leave, i dont know this is a very very weird feeling.

actually writing this post has got me a little be more freaked out.
anyway i should go to bed.

people who read fast forward are silly

Okay
so like 2 weeks ago I wrote to one of my friends in the "I saw you section" of fast forward magazine, and i didnt tell them it was more something i just wanted to get off my chest.

and in this past issue there was a reply to my little add thing and i dunno lol its kinda cute like i know its not from the person i sent it to cause this person doesnt even read fast forward but yeh...now ir eally want to know who it is.

where is the shut off button?

I couldn't sleep and i woke up to write a blog and found the pleasant surprize of my blog being made over with a new banner designed and installed but the mightest of michelles.
so thank you very much michelle its beautiful!


HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRIANNE
today is Brianne 19th birhtday which is super cool.

I all of a sudden have writters block, like my mind is a friggen whirl pool of thoughts but i cant fish out just one to write about. oh my life.

=D

I <3 Lacey!