a knights tale

(direct quote from my j-j-journal)

Im in such a weird place im tryin to find some sort of balance between rich, old, historic faith; new spirituality expressed through the arts and community; "works" and plain ol' religion.

I was thinking about half an hour ago that I wish it was possiable to have a "untainted untaught" faith, so often i feel i've done/do things because religion dictats it.

I dont even know where to start. Inside my heart is like a thousand knots tied from one string into a huge ball and there is no indication of where i should start untying.