kingsfold
soo...Im 18 now, offically an adult and my life is legally my own.
Yesturday I had the lovely experiance of hanging out at Kingsfold retreat centre. When we first got there my good friend took me on a tour, we walked down this huge hill to where they have the stations of the cross and it was actually really neat, I would like to go back and have some time to work through the stations, then we had lunch (lental soup, it was really intresting) and then we had some time to go about and do what we liked, I decieded to go to there chapel which was actually really neat, in the centre there was this big stone and at the front there was a really cool cross made out of just some untreated logs. So I walked around in the chapel a little bit and found a candle with a dragonfly on it, and most of you know what i view dragonflies as a kind of spiritual symbol for myself, so i was like "k im gonna light this" so i had to search around through all there cupboards to find a lighter (i felt kind of rude but i really wanted to light it). I found one and after i put the light in my candle i decieded to take off my shoes to signify that I was standing in holy ground and that I wanted to be in a
"holy frame of mind"
so i sat down on near my candle and just looked at it and started thinking, and in the beginning of the day i was like "I know my thoughts are going to come back to all the things i am worried about but i dont want them to id rather have some sort of spiritual relvalation"
so anyway i started thinking and looking at the candle and thinking about the things im worried about, so i decieded to start praying about those things and as i pray in my head i deciede to pray outloud, so i start saying everything outloud and I pray about all those things and i ask God "when i blow out this candle please let it be a symbol of me getting rid off the worry and putting my trust in you"
so after a few minutes I blew out the candle. I was going to stay and journal and reflect on what just happened but someone else came into the chapel and kind of shifted my focus so i decieded to go for a walk.
I ended up in the "Grace notes room" which was a room they had set up hoping that people with a more of an art focus would come, they had some really neat pictures and stuff and it was cool, in there I journaled about being in the chapel and the candle and all that stuff and it was nice, after that i only had about 30 minutes before we(that would be Jen and myself) were going to meet to go do some reflection with the church that sponsored the day. So I decieded to go outside again and see if anything sparked my intrest, as i was walking i found a swing that looked over the cliff and the valley/river. I sat in the swing with the intention of reading a book that zoey gave me for my birthday but i ended up just looking and listening to the river, it was very nice.
after the half hour was over, i went to find Jen and we went and met with the 4 people from crossroads (thats the church)
We all sat and talked for a while and then the paster asked if anyone had anything they wanted prayer for, i piped in about how i need a job and Jen mentioned about how im going to africa, so we talked about that for a few minutes and then they prayed for me.
I cant say how NICE it was to have these people pray for me, usually i think praying outload is pretty hoky and fake and all that, which this stuff used the same "christian" langues most people use, but just the fact that they were from a church and they where praying for me and it wasnt over the top flaky christian langues was so nice, I've felt kind of shafted by church right now so I dont know that was a really cool experiance.
Jen and I talked alot about camp and it made me not so worried about going this weekend and we talked alot about possiable things that could happen when im back from africa and i got me SO stoaked
so that was cool.
Yesturday I had the lovely experiance of hanging out at Kingsfold retreat centre. When we first got there my good friend took me on a tour, we walked down this huge hill to where they have the stations of the cross and it was actually really neat, I would like to go back and have some time to work through the stations, then we had lunch (lental soup, it was really intresting) and then we had some time to go about and do what we liked, I decieded to go to there chapel which was actually really neat, in the centre there was this big stone and at the front there was a really cool cross made out of just some untreated logs. So I walked around in the chapel a little bit and found a candle with a dragonfly on it, and most of you know what i view dragonflies as a kind of spiritual symbol for myself, so i was like "k im gonna light this" so i had to search around through all there cupboards to find a lighter (i felt kind of rude but i really wanted to light it). I found one and after i put the light in my candle i decieded to take off my shoes to signify that I was standing in holy ground and that I wanted to be in a
"holy frame of mind"
so i sat down on near my candle and just looked at it and started thinking, and in the beginning of the day i was like "I know my thoughts are going to come back to all the things i am worried about but i dont want them to id rather have some sort of spiritual relvalation"
so anyway i started thinking and looking at the candle and thinking about the things im worried about, so i decieded to start praying about those things and as i pray in my head i deciede to pray outloud, so i start saying everything outloud and I pray about all those things and i ask God "when i blow out this candle please let it be a symbol of me getting rid off the worry and putting my trust in you"
so after a few minutes I blew out the candle. I was going to stay and journal and reflect on what just happened but someone else came into the chapel and kind of shifted my focus so i decieded to go for a walk.
I ended up in the "Grace notes room" which was a room they had set up hoping that people with a more of an art focus would come, they had some really neat pictures and stuff and it was cool, in there I journaled about being in the chapel and the candle and all that stuff and it was nice, after that i only had about 30 minutes before we(that would be Jen and myself) were going to meet to go do some reflection with the church that sponsored the day. So I decieded to go outside again and see if anything sparked my intrest, as i was walking i found a swing that looked over the cliff and the valley/river. I sat in the swing with the intention of reading a book that zoey gave me for my birthday but i ended up just looking and listening to the river, it was very nice.
after the half hour was over, i went to find Jen and we went and met with the 4 people from crossroads (thats the church)
We all sat and talked for a while and then the paster asked if anyone had anything they wanted prayer for, i piped in about how i need a job and Jen mentioned about how im going to africa, so we talked about that for a few minutes and then they prayed for me.
I cant say how NICE it was to have these people pray for me, usually i think praying outload is pretty hoky and fake and all that, which this stuff used the same "christian" langues most people use, but just the fact that they were from a church and they where praying for me and it wasnt over the top flaky christian langues was so nice, I've felt kind of shafted by church right now so I dont know that was a really cool experiance.
Jen and I talked alot about camp and it made me not so worried about going this weekend and we talked alot about possiable things that could happen when im back from africa and i got me SO stoaked
so that was cool.
posted by Lacey at
7:35 PM
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HAPYY BIRTHDAY LACEY!!! YOU ARE AMAZING AND YOU WILL DO GREAT THINGS! P.S I FOUND YOU!
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