why?

okay this is not a rant so please dont read it that way.

Why are people the way they are? like why dont we care when we see other people hurting? i just dont understand.
The world has enough resources for everyone, why do we live so much over what we need? i just really dont understand. I really truely do not get this.

How do we change? the answer isnt hard but as north americans we've made the action of the answer very hard. we cant part with our things i dont get it.

following christ really is a big thing...like it extends to how we live and i know people always say "its a life style" but i mean it extends to how we live in such a deeper way...
I dont know how im going to do this, but the idea that it is a process gives me comfort, I really do hope to make my life a reflection of what i believe in all aspects.

the fear i have from not having a job is slowly seeping into other aspects of my life, now im very nervous about going to camp and very nervous about my friendships, i dont understand how all of a sudden i feel like a shiver puddle of incompatents.